Hi Aurora-
I feel like a spy, i don't do this book (yet) and i somehow landed on this thread. But i wanted to respond to your insight:
>>I guess I've built a bit of an association around depression and course work... its probably absurd. <<

I understand that, and depression, longing, wishing I had done something differently, feeling in lack...all send me to deep inner work. I'm kind of an addict to finding what's wrong, rather what is right.

And therein i think is the key to creating differently. Maybe focus on what you want to create (vs. un-do), in generous strokes yet still attainable (be generous to feeding your nature), putting your worth, and deserved-ness at the center. Forgetting and putting aside for that moment that something in the past went wrong, and we need to correct it, and do something differently.

One "trick" that helps centers me is I meditate on the being that I was at the moment of my birth...what energy I was bringing into the world, and what potentials I must have brought with me into this lifetimes. And your core hopes for being in this world. That makes me feel like I do have a divine right to posses this space in time on this planet, that I am no different than anyone else who is circulating around me. I am not in lack.

xoxo-
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